Category Archives: Uncertainty

Letting Go


Ajahn Sucitto says:

From an article titled “What You Take Home with You
“…Time then is a measure of desire – desire for continuity, desire for a certain outcome. It paralyzes us into expectation and anticipation or dread and worry. We skip over the present moment and get lost in something we imagine is out there in the virtual reality we call the future.”…

“The capacity to live in uncertainty, with anicca, can be a great help. We develop the capacity to live without a future, without knowing. But it’s not about imagining that there will be no future…that’s another expectation about the future. No, the skills that you develop in being fully tuned in to the present and meeting and managing what arises will support a future based on clarity and balance. The future arises out of the conditions in the present, so when you handle the present with mindfulness, the future will be conditioned by awareness and joy rather than by anxiety and bias. Joy comes from the initiative and the courage to meet the inconstant and the uncertain. Take those with you too!”

Dhamma and the Hot Seat


Much like my inner world these days, the skies here in Portland offer obvious contrasts: bright and dark, jagged and smooth, aggressive and calm. Watching the visual comings and goings in the empty space of spring offers dimensional form to the challenges of my emotional world. Interestingly, when looking from a point of view of my Buddhist practice, that which stirs fear and trepidation in my heart also lends exciting possibility for positive change. How gracefully will I handle change when and how it comes? I am curious to find out . . .

The Portland Friends of the Dhamma Center is working through a process to identify our community’s vision, describe and assign roles and finalize our by-laws. It’s a precious time for transparency, vulnerability and integrity. We are very fortunate to have secured Mary Grace Orr to facilitate as she is familiar with our lineage and a several members of our community.

As founder and current Dhamma leader I’m anticipating my seat will be brimming with opportunity to call on my practice. We’ll see how graceful (or not) I handle the challenges as they arise . . . and pass away; thank goodness for refuge ;)

Will write again in a couple weeks and let you know how things turn out, or in, or whatever the case may be . . .

Mosier Hermitage Comes to its End

Tempatures dip and the rains return to carpet autumn leaves underfoot. The Mosier Summer Hermitage comes to a close. In seven days we’ll pack up the tents, fold up the blankets and send the monks on their way. It’s been a valuable experiment, I’m pleased how many folks took advantage of these venerables presence over these past three months. Maybe, with luck and a lot of good work, we’ll have a monastic presence here year round.